DM I don't think you're weird or sick. You relived a good memory of a time of a beautiful love. It will always be a memory for you. I do think you should get rid of the DVD just to keep it from being seen by someone else.

As for "what if..." keep it as a lovely memory and don't let it interfere with your current life. You can't change what happened so live your live better for having made such a memory.

(((((DM)))))