I've always wanted.. a lower maintence girl. All of my previous ones being high maintence. or so i thought at least.. Until i really sat back and looked it over. and looked over all the times where i figured it was them being difficult and bitchy. when it really was me just... being annoying. or too worried..

and i found out that i'm really the high maintence person. =/ it takes alot to keep me.. satisfied. i was going to say happy. but im always happy. Satisfied is the better termination.

So yea.. I confess, its hard to keep me satisfied, both sexually and well I hope you all can connect with this but. In.. a relationship setting. Where your together with someone. and the fact of being with someone. I got this thing about being around people.. and being with someone =/ i can be a bit overbearing.. .. like i can assess my feelings very quickly and know exactly who someone is. i'm a very quick judge of character normally and i understand how people think. so with that said.. i attach myself rather quickly. and then i unknowningly push myself upon someone. Its.. a bad thing =/. i think its just.. me.. But its mainly. because i see things and understand how i feel. I i think i skip the part in the relationship where we are supposed to build those feelings up and what not. and i go right into it as if we had been dating for awhile.

if yall can understand that at all =/ sorry for my ramblings..

shutting up now

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